Beautiful Imperfection

Sometimes I wonder where you are, what you are doing, who are you with… and sometimes I wonder if you’re even still breathing. Again, I come back to the age old question, which has been bothering me for quite sometimes.. why do we have to make choices?

To move forward? or backward maybe, in some cases. to have to sacrifice something in order to get something else.

I hear the butterflies singing softly into my ears,

enticing me with songs of perpetual beauty.

To many of you out there, the quoted text above may not make any sort of sense at all. but I’m quite sure there will be some who could relate to what I am feeling only by reading the above text. I want to move on, yet I seek the comfort of my own past, I want to regret, yet I need to face my own doings (choices).

我想你。 我希望你原谅我。

In many ways, I’ve been feeling a lot better. It would seemed that everything around my life has made its slow turn for the better, and in a way takes me out of my depression. Although it is still a part of an ongoing progress, I couldn’t help but feeling totally positive about what the near future has for me.

I missed the life I used to have, the friends who used to share in my pain and happiness, the day to day life lived in blissful ignorance and joy. but all of us have to grow up, and this is the time for me.. In about two weeks I’ll turn 20, and I guess I’m not a child anymore. I need to start thinking about what I want to do with my life. though I dreaded the day I no longer qualify as a “teenager” but in my heart, and the only lie I would tell you, is that I am 17 years old. =3

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I’ve been a little busy with what we like to call “real life”. I don’t really have a lot of time to be online, and what little time I could get, I’d be sure to update the blog.

I might get a job soon, or at least some work that will make some money for me. I’ve been so stressed up lately, but I’m hoping the next month or so everything will be better.

Not to mention that my birthday is coming! early this November =D though I dreaded the day I turn twenty, I somehow can’t wait to have my birthday done and over with. and that means I’m actually kinda excited about it.

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