Beautiful Imperfection

When things don’t go well, what would you do? try your best to keep the relationship going perhaps? leave and run away, even though you know you’ll regret it?

Life comes with choices, and this is probably one of the biggest choice I have to make. When you think about it, I made a lot of choices, of trying very hard to be with him, that I caused most of the problems in my own life. I fought with my mother, and eventually, she sorta ‘disowned’ me as her son, sent me back to my father, and well, here I am.

Imagine if I hadn’t met him. a couple months ago, I probably couldn’t think of such a thing, I love him, but if I had to go through all the pain just to have him beside me, loving me for one second and hurting me the next, I definitely can’t do that. So what’s next? I need to make a decision, and stick with it. and my decision right now is to stay away. If you’re reading this, I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you, or put you in any sort of misery. But I have my own life to take care of now, and I can’t even do a good job at that, I simply can’t take care of you, not now, at least.

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