Joel Xaryn

Alone

Joel — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 01:15:35 +0000

Lately I’ve been feeling so Alone.. and this time, it isn’t the kind of alone I have felt years ago.. I felt alone before, but I had friends who I could call up and meet up and who would love to console me and make me laugh, and just be happy.. the kind of friends who wouldn’t want to see me drifting towards destruction..

Maybe that’s why I wanted so much to go back to my past, where everything was so much more simpler, and much more happier. I just messaged my best friend in Singapore, who even after I made her disappointed and probably really angry at me, still want to take my apology, and be a friend.

My whole life, I would say that I don’t have much friends, lots of strangers, but little of those I could consider good friends. and the some I have, I wish to keep forever… maybe it’s because I haven’t lived in one place for a long period of time.. I keep on moving here and there, losing the friends I had, and forced to make new ones.. which isn’t easy for me, cos I’m not exactly extroverted…

sigh..

omg… I’m old…

Joel — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 16:21:39 +0000

So I have become 20 as of 5th November… didn’t host a party or anything though, just ate a cake, and clubbing the next day.. =3 but omg, I’m old now, and no longer a teenager… freaking aging thing…

neeways, I’m going to a gay club tonight.. am at the restaurant now, just ate pancakes and stuff..

don’t really have anything to say.. meh… that’s about it.. oh, and I do want to say a huge thanks to everybody who wishes me happy birthday and stuff.. =3

Love, Joel

Out in Town

Joel — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 11:41:52 +0000

So, I’ve been staying in the city for the last few days.. well, since I came back from the mountains xD.. I’m just lazy to go back to the “village” which is where I’m Staying at. I asked my mother for the apartment key, and I’m thinking of staying there for the next week or so.

Lots of things had happened in the last few days, not only I got my teeth done!! xD it’s like white now >.< and though I still need to come back to the dentist next week to get it even better, but I’m already happy that I don’t have to be shy when I’m smiling.. It’s not that I didn’t clean it, just that there was still some glue left from when I used to wear braces.

Oh! and My birthday is in a couple of days!! sigh, I’m gonna be twenty!! no longer a cute little teen boy I already used to be. T.T I don’t even know what I’m gonna do with my birthday, though since it’s not my 21st it shouldn’t be too grand anyway.. probably just a BBQ at my grandmother’s place. =3

well that’s about it. and BTW~ the picture on this post, though I found it from DeviantArt, is actually a picture of my apartment where I live right now.. so now you know~ =]

Weekend Off =3

Joel — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 10:44:38 +0000

This weekend, I went to the mountains!~ xD well, with Thomas and some of his friends. at first I was like, awh, I don’t know any of them, and I was really shy to make a conversation and shits, cos they all seemed to have known each other for al long time, and most of what they seemed to talk about, isn’t something I could relate to. although, once we started drinking, I opened up and I honestly had fun. =3

And well, there’s like those stingers bugs stuff in the room, and I got really paranoid about that, but thank god they don’t come out at night. so, I’m on my way to the city to meet my sister, and probebly go shopping for a bit, and have a walk around some malls.

Prolly going to the dentist tomorrow as well.. about time I have my teeth checked out and cleaned… xD

(ps: picture is not of the mountain i visited)