Thinking
I feel so afraid of everything. so afraid of the future, and the past. sometimes I feel like everything out there is out to get me. I feel like there not one person out there I can trust. I feel so alone. so fragile.
Everything is gonna be better, he said, trying to comfort me. desperately I tried to believe that. wanting to know that he would be there for me, for always.
I have so much anger in the core of my being that its eating me alive, from the inside. I feel hollow. I feel small, I feel… dead. like, have you ever felt like you don’t matter at all? like no one gives a damn about you? well if you have, then you can definitely relate to how I’m feeling right now. it hurts.
-J
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Sorry if this comes out lame, but that’s exactly why I never write, somehow in the way between my line of thought and the words getting out something always gets lost. On the other hand, your words can explain the way I feel in a why I could never do which makes me even more sad, knowing that someone else out there can feel so much pain inside like I do. Basically I’m a coward that can’t even ask for a helping hand, and I wish I could say that it will all be better, but as you can see I also doubt that, but let’s hope (better not lose that) that everyone else is right and things will brighten up.
Hugs from someone who has the same hopes for you as he has for himself.
Filipe
I think we all have those moments in life, for some those moments last longer than others, but the one thing that never changes is how those moments feel like they are going to last a lifetime. I myself have a hole inside of me, that I cannot fill no matter how hard I try, but I cling to the hope that eventually I will get a glimpse of the fabled light at the end of the tunnel. I suppose that is the key, hope.
Never lose hope Joel!