Beautiful Imperfection

I had a fight last night. It came out of nowhere. Just me being the jealous over nothing boyfriend. I Shouldn’t talk about it here. but as we yell at each other. It triggers a Deja-Vu, or something entirely new, like a vivid clear vision. Like I know what was coming next, and I averted it. I believe that everything will be a lot better really soon. I can feel the vibration of the universe pulling its invisible strings to trigger ‘random’ events around us. and I feel like I know what’s coming. that’s how I believe everything is gonna turn out better. there’s simply no logical way of explaining it.

It has been a while since I cried myself to sleep. but it had felt good. The uncontrollable sobbing. Feel like I’m letting go of everything that has been buried deep in my heart. like some sort of a cleansing ritual. Now I have to go. to pull some of the strings which held the universe together myself. to actually decides on something. to make what We have been wanting happen. wish me Luck, and the most optimal outcome.

Here is a Poem I wrote last night. as I cried, while trying to calm myself down to no avail. this was how I feel about everything. I call it “Dawn”:

The clock ticking in the dark

crimson river flows with an eerie subtlety

over the face of the moon it shines

a path of salvation it proclaim

meandering though carelessly

on a weathered path predestined

while leaving behind foot-prints

of a forbidden enchantment in the past.

I love you, I miss you. Soon, we will be together again, as we promised. For Always. <3

-J

It has been for some of us, a scary aspect of Nature. Also, Horror/Suspense movies has featured these Icky creatures as the Antagonist. Even today, as I was sitting, enjoying a cigarette, I saw an Insect I failed to identify flying around me. I had to burn it, but then, I felt this feeling of sadness, almost mourning feeling for it.

Thinking of it, Nature has created these intricate creatures, which without them, our lives wouldn’t be as how it is right now. They may seemed small and unimportant, but they play a crucial role in the world.

But still, they’re scary!

=s